Schizotypal Forum

Hi, I have the diagnosis of schizoid personality and when i was in the hospital they said i had schizoaffective psychosis. But i have many of the schizotypal things like annhilation anxiety, paranoia, and no friends. And something like a perceptual distortion I guess, like watching dreams while awake, but these are going all the time i just put my attention on them to get them. If I'm nervous i get them without that. Well, nice to meet you. Does anybody have tips on how to manage paranoia? I have a lot always. A tip that helps for me is just let some days go by and then the paranoid thing might look different. But there's always new things of which the ongoingness of it is exausting, life is always hinging on nightmares. Can anybody relate to this? Anybody?

I have a lot of perceptual distortions in that I think everything happens to me for a reason, that some invisible force is pushing me toward a greater destiny and if I could just learn to read the signs I would know what to do with my life and everything it has given me. Sometimes I believe in karma, the "My Name is Earl" brand of karma, even though many years ago a Buddhist monk explained to me that karma had nothing to do with justice or punishment, it is simply a matter of cause and effect. To this day, I think that maybe I got fat because of all the fat people I made fun of behind their backs when I was younger, and not because my metabolism changed and I eat to make myself feel better. Like there's this divine being who's keeping tabs and meting out punishment for bad behavior.

Oh, you think about dreams while awake too? I thought I was the only one, just kidding. Paranoia is difficult to manage and whenever it gets a chance to interfere in your daily activities it will. Honestly, you can ignore it completely which is easier said than done and virtually impossible in retrospect, or you can ask yourself why you feel that way and logically figure out the justification behind your feelings. It will be difficult but coming to terms with them works better for me than simply dismissing them. This is just my two cents, so I would read about how to cope with paranoia whenever you have time.

Agony wrote, "Oh, you think about dreams while awake too? I thought I was the only one, just kidding."

I'm not talking about "thinking about dreams while awake", I'm talking about hallucinating dreams while awake. It's like watching a tv running with gruesome aliens and devils morphing into each other and happenings that are humanly impossible. It's things that are surreal, there are no human words for some of them. If i'm agitated, my internal energy attracts them. In the past, i've been scared of getting lost in them. But it's not thinking or rememberng or even imagining, it is watching.

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Thanks, Karla.

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I have a hard time with paranoia, but I try to remember that I am paranoid.. it helps sometimes. I fear the time I tell myself it is paranoia when there is a real threat.

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walk.two.worlds wrote:Agony wrote, "Oh, you think about dreams while awake too? I thought I was the only one, just kidding."

I'm not talking about "thinking about dreams while awake", I'm talking about hallucinating dreams while awake. It's like watching a tv running with gruesome aliens and devils morphing into each other and happenings that are humanly impossible. It's things that are surreal, there are no human words for some of them. If i'm agitated, my internal energy attracts them. In the past, i've been scared of getting lost in them. But it's not thinking or rememberng or even imagining, it is watching.

My mistake, that sounds kinda scary when you can't control dreaming while awake. It may blur the line between reality and fantasy in an unusual and disturbing way. Are you capable of realizing that a dream is a dream? I do that plenty of times while dreaming when asleep. What you are talking about sounds like halucinations, but since you know more about them than I do dreams might be the better term to use.