Schizotypal Forum

Hello,
I am new.
25, male, grad student, married
About me...
Very creative, check
Magical thinking, check
Strange and eccentric, check
Schizo in the family, check
95%+ on the test, check
Hard to follow, check

I have few friends since I "turned," but apparently that's "normal."

Hi there,

I was wondering what you meant by turned...

would you like to share some of your creativity?

hi hopingforanew, and welcome!

Turned - One day when I was 12 I had the most HORRIBLE headache ever. My eyes were very sensitive to light, but the dark didn't bring much relief. I tried to take some advil, but when I tried to read the bottle I couldn't read. The problem wasn't that the words were too small, but rather that my brain forgot how to read. I tried to open a book, but again the letters didn't make any sense at all. I pretty much freaked out at that point and punched a hole in my wall.
I eventually fell asleep later that night (more like passed out exhausted) trying to come to terms with the fact I may be illiterate forever. Luckily, when I woke up in the morning I could read. Yea! Unfortunately, I had strange feelings that cropped up such as nervousness, paranoia, scattered thinking, random words popping out of my mouth during a sentence, feelings that I would rather be alone, the ability to tell the future, read minds and the feeling that I was sent by God to save the world.
Fortunately, my memory got much better and once I learned how to focus, I got much smarter. I have to read a little more slowly and listen to heavy metal when I study, but it works well for me. I also became more artistic and can design and fix things more easily.

Hello hopingforanew!

Are you saying that this night changed everything and somehow is linked to StPD? I'm a little confused...

Sorry,
Just defining "turned."
I think that was the onset of StPD. Turning into me.
Sometimes I can be hard to follow.
I'll try to be more clear.

So are you saying that with the onset you found your true self?
Do you still think God sent you to save the world..only I had that one too...

Yep, still got it.
I think it actually is an advantage. I can't completely withdraw from the outside world and must force myself to concentrate when life becomes difficult. I won't let my own issues get in my way.
Is it likely that I have been enlisted to save the world? No
Am I still going to try? Yes

Madness doesn't always lead to bad things.

Yes I agree, some madness is absolutely necessary..especially when we have kids...how else would we get through. You sound pretty sound...you have a good knowledge of who you are it seems, and you accept you.